Week 33 Day 7

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention practise forgiveness metta and noting

Evening all! Today 30 mins of noting and metta.

I struggled with alertness due to the lateness in the day but after 15 mins I practised metta and found that that yielded quite a lot of interesting reflection.

I observed how quiet it was but not a peaceful quiet, more of an agitated quiet. Today I was calm in the midst of moaning at the golf club.  I actually didn't care about what they were arguing about. These days I notice that a friend who is a newly important person is being surrounded by those who wish to curry favour. I am beginning to tire of this jousting so let them get on with it. Such is the sub culture of a club.

When I practised forgiveness metta I thought about today and how easy it is to get sucked into gossip. There are those who would have you think they are your friends until they've sucked the information they want from you. Then they're back into their crowd. I forgave them and forgave myself for the feelings of disappointment that I felt as they unsubtly moved to speak to someone else.

The weather was glorious and our team got the highest score..but as we were a group of women we didn't win the top prize! Like I said, this is the mysterious subculture of a club! I forgave them for their prejudice and forgave myself for being frustrated with the chauvinism. Not that it is right, but there is no space in my tiny head of wasteful draining thoughts like those.

Tomorrow more golf with my buddies. Win win.

Hope you're having a great weekend!
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