Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert
Good evening all! Today 30 mins of practice, 10 mins metta after 15 mins and then at the end.
Had
a day of golfing with mixed feelings today, so pretty tired. Was so
excited At the start but did not live up to expectations so that is a
equanimous lesson learned - you can only experience true contentment
when you stay in the present.
Lots of nodding
happened today, I struggled with tiredness but decided to continue. I
renewed my intention to stay alert many times. My mood was not very
upbeat so thoughts of situations with unpleasant vedana passed through
my mind.
I had thoughts of not continuing
after 15 mins but when the bell went I decided to add a bit of metta
practice for 5 minutes. I had some strong focused feelings but had to
revisit my meditation object frequently. After a few minutes of metta, I
decided to do an extra 10 minutes of noting. I felt the overwhelming
down mood press on me, and then I noticed my hands on my knees and my
breathing in the periphery. The bell went at 25 mins so I did another 5
minutes of metta which was just as tough as the first lot.
Tiredness
does not promote alertness, so walking meditation may be the only
option if low energy means that I'm basically trying to nap when I sit
down!
Anyhoo after good night's sleep and
hopefully with better mood, I can attack the tube meditation with vigour
tomorrow morning! Haaaaaaiiiiiiyah! 😆
Happy practising everyone! 🐷😴🐷
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