Week 28 Day 1

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert

Evening all!  This morning all good intentions went out the window so I ate breakfast  (which is unusual anyway) and left for the golf course.  We had a 40th anniversary round with 80 people in the field. We came 2nd last haha...a couple of my team were loving the trees.. not good for the score! But missed many opportunities to close out.

Today's meditation was 45 mins 5 mins  metta at the end.

I was tired and after only 10 mins was nodding off, so I decided to open my eyes. When that didn't work I stood  up and when that didn't work I started walking. Slowly. As slowly as possible.

Interestingly because I was focusing in taking the smallest slowest steps, I was able to focus in on the physical movement of walking and be aware of the periphery as well. As I walked from the bedroom to the hallway to the kitchen, different sensations came into the field. Firstly I had taken my slippers off to walk barefoot and each time I left the bedroom I had to walk over the slippers. This was a test of not meddling with the environment. Furthermore when I entered the narrow kitchen, my coat brushed against my arm with a swishing sound and this was highly irritating - another opportunity to accept things as they are. I had left some cauliflower cheese out to cook and I thought how easy it would be for me to pop that in the oven etc...but I resisted - putting food in the oven is not part of walking meditation! As I turned around to go back I could see various items on the  counters all beckoning me to deal with them! A fascinating yearning to sort things out!

The laminate flooring creaks more at certain spots mainly in the hallway.  Each circuit took around 4 mins which is verrry slow. It was interesting to watch every footfall, listen to every breath and to hear the clock get louder and louder as I  approached it. Usually I do not like ticking clocks but you can judge for yourself...I call it the Barcelona fried egg in honour of where I bought it.

Throughout the practice little thought came through except to maintain balance and put one foot in front of the other. The floor was cool and smooth and I planted my heel before the rest of the foot.

I could hear my neighbours talking upstairs, the heating going off and on, the ticking clock, the creeeeeeak creeaaak of the floors. Something not to do in a power cut in the dark might be the makings of a horror story!

The time went by super fast and I was pretty alert.

Fascinating to walk so mindfully across a piece of floor I'm backwards and forwards on all the time.

Sat down for metta practice, managed on and off to feel the feeling but the moment the energy of the walking was gone I started to drift.

Ok now.. not quite the end of the weekend so it's Happy Sunday and Happy end of the evening to you! Cauliflower going back in the fridge, fast food is in order! 🐽💜🐽

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