Week 26 Day 5

Medi object choiceless awareness Intention to check in to monitor the quality of attention Morning all! Today I am travelling further than usual to Liverpool Street. The tube is cool but crowded. Noting today was 30 mins. I had the intention of monitoring the quality of my attention throughout the practice. At the start my focus there was on a guy sitting next to me. Nope not me fancying him, but him flirting on the phone with a woman. Every so often I could hear her muffled voice at the other end like the voice of the teacher in Charlie Brown. The reason why I knew he was flirting was because they were talking about nothingness....plans, journey, reminiscences and the guy was being sooo encouraging 😁. Definitely wooing. Not girlfriend yet. Anyhoo the conversation was interrupted by several cut offs if service so I was able to focus on other things...phew I was getting a bit irritated by the constant chatter. Pleasant and unpleasant the sane time. There were no station announcements until just past Acton Town unusually. The door alarms went through a pattern of 4 beats 6 times. I felt the warmth in my hands and sometimes swirls in front of my eyes. At one point early on I cycled through the senses checking out what was out there. For a while there was some movement on my other side. Woman putting on make up,  such a thin person with wide sharp elbows. Then she flicked her hair a few times which touched my shoulders. ..just as well she didn't have Farrah Fawcett locks they would have been all over me . I checked in and monitored my attention every few seconds.  Took a bit of getting used to. But actually very useful. I noticed I was in a thought already at one point.  Then a very clear image of a yoghurt pot appeared! Very weird since I don't eat yoghurt! The monitoring actually made the practice a lot more interesting and time passed quickly. I used to check my alertness by seeing whether I could sense all periphery sensations so perhaps I need to combine this way of checking (focusing on the most recent medi object and seeing how much detail I have retained). Half way through a planning meeting...thankfully. Not being in the present...better get back to it. 🐽💜🐽 26/5