Week 25 Day 5

Medi object choiceless awareness

Intention to observe all possible sensations and their detail

Morning all!  Today finally have more energy. Over the weekend I felt exhausted but I've gradually come out of the fuzziness.

Meditated for nearly 40 mins today 5 mins metta either end. The metta at the start seemed to be filled with distractions so I repeated it at the end when I was able to concentrate on the feeling much more strongly.

This morning the predominant sensation was the sound of the train moving. The whirring noise starts low then works up to a higher pitch. It is accented with thuds over the tracks. It is accompanied with the physical movement of the carriage. I was also drawn a few times to swirls in front of my eyes alternating green and purple and receding into the distance, quite pleasant and mesmerising.The station announcements, the door alarms, rustling of newspapers and voices, all chimed in every now and then, but today the main noise was this whirring noise. I could also hear the muffled announcements from the driver's cab and every so often when we stopped a quiet voice over the speakers would reassure passengers that we would be moving again shortly.

Overall, the sensations seemed pleasant to neutral, almost reassuring. I can understand why people get nervous when the train stops particularly in tunnels, which is why the driver is instructed to reassure the passengers that nothing is amiss.

I disembarked and mindfully observed the new poster that has been stuck over the Scottish Widows advert. It is an advert for Audible, with a quote from To Kill a Mocking Bird. Half the poster is of a woman with long curly red hair with very old fashioned headphones on, with a cord leading to a generic phone in her left back pocket. She is looking up and pulling her sleeve up. The text of the quote is wrapped around her. More examination next week.

On the next train, I manage to get a seat straight away, and continued to meditate for around 10 minutes. The sounds are different on this train, there is more open space on the carriage and it is less crowded. The whirring moving sound though remains the same. I decided to end with metta, I felt the lovingkindness feeling but it wanes in and out, there is much distraction with noisy passengers getting on the train.

Sun's out! Have a great day and practice! 🐽 💜 🐽

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