Week 20 Day 2

Medi object choiceless?

Intention to remain receptive and alert. To see the arising and passing of thoughts

Morning all! Today I have the luxury of practising before I leave for work, because I will be working past midnight tonight.

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I  started with focus on the breath and  the rising and falling of it. The ringing in my ears was very predominant. I noticed that sometimes my object is not choiceless, I sometimes draw myself back to the breath if I  want to refocus. There were many thought trains today and I tried to work out how they started and watched them until they finished. I observed that if I no longer heard my breath I was lost in thought. So for me I need to keep my breath in the peripheral awareness, so as not to be lost in the content of thought. Most of the thoughts were about planning as the next three days are unusual for me so I need to be clear about what I'm doing. However, interestingly, the people in the scenes were unknown to me although they were doing the things I had planned.

I had downloaded the timer on to a different device, and I think I had set the awareness bell for every 5 minutes which is unusual for me. However I continued and 30 minutes seemed very comfortable.

Physical sensations around the body were that there was a breeze around my calves and I could feel my neck ache for a bit and my back beginning to stiffen. I also felt a few itches but they came and passed.

Today I only saw blurry lights I did not see any floaters today it could be that I was not sitting facing a window light as I was yesterday.

I felt alert and even though I went into the contents of some thoughts I am beginning to workout when this happens so each day I learn more about being in the present.

Hope you all have a great day and practice! 🐽 💜 🐽