Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Week 10 Day 5

Week 10 Day 5
Metta practice 20 mins

Today was an ad hoc day, I woke up late and then stayed after work for a drink and dinner with a dear colleague who was leaving our team. In the end I was left him on the other tube at 11pm and I decided to try some metta Kornfield style, saying the phrases. I started on myself but it didn't seem to resonate, so I tried the words on my niece Claire...ohhh those words definitely helped me to focus on her and I really felt more focused on her and there was a pleasant sensation around my head and upper body. I then decided to try it on my mother and well it was even better! I am very much a words person and I think the phrases seem to allow me to focus a lot more on the subject. These are not words I would say to my mother or niece but they are very loving wishes. I definitely felt more connected, even though I did occasionally think they were a bit hokey as Nick says. My family are not very affectionate so to say these loving kindness words to anyone would strike a chord let alone to my darling mother and niece. I will continue to try metta like this, and maybe next week I will try them with my father...those who have read my previous posts will know this is not an easy thing. So no noting today (waaaah) it's 0030 so it's time to think about bed not wake myself up with a smashing practice! But I may try a little mindful thought before bed. Good night everyone, tomorrow I'm at home again. But a bit of sacrifice was worth it to say goodbye to a colleague who has become a good friend. I will be able to practise during the day tomorrow hooray! 

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