Week 14 Day 2

Week 14 Day 2

Medi object choiceless
Intention observe raw sensations, labelling accurately

Today's tube practice was a bit dispersed. I tried the same labelling method as yesterday but it was tough, I had to open my eyes for a bit, not sure why. I tried noting the rising and falling of my breath and then the sounds, feelings and sights I sensed. There were loads of sounds almost too many to note ...still have to work out how to stop vocalising. It was still pretty exciting, but the noise did make it harder. Thoughts of work planning came and went. I whatsapped my mother first as well so only meditated for around 25 mins or so. But wanted to  find out about Dad. Anyhoo, I've had such a crazy day, I really wanted to practise before starting work. So I felt a bit on edge. 

I'm starting to try to do some present moment sensing, eg sensing my feet, how they feel on the ground, and getting used to the idea that these sensations are impermanent and during practice if you don't feel it, it doesn't exist...now that's hard to take in. So used to feeling everything is solid. In yoga we talk about grounding the hands and feet, to have good solid contact on the ground. But every sensation doesn't last. And by the time you are conscious of it, it's gone...pooof!

It also means that suffering doesn't last either. The craving, the pain, the anxiety. The mental construct that is "I" makes us suffer. Well, I need to ponder on that, and work out whether that true for me.

As I was standing on the tube today, there was a man muttering to himself...Man talking to himself never a good sign.  I did look hard to see if he had an ear piece, but he opened his bag and took his pass out of a plastic wallet...umm OCD? My colleague does it as well, it sounds like Gollum! 

Hopefully after a good night's rest, will be ready to face tomorrow's practice! Let's be 'aving yer!