Week 13 Day 4

Week 13 Day 4

Medi object choiceless
Intention receptive equanimous observations of raw physical sensations and thoughts

Today tube medi was smooth. The train was oppressively full from very early  on. I observed my breath being there and the rising and falling was omnipresent.

I observed a sudden extreme itch below my left nostril and thought right you,  let's be having you ala Delia Smith. I noted the intensity grew,  the urge to scratch was enormous. I mused if we have these insatiable urges to scratch what other habitual urges do we have for other sensations. This is our safe place to explore these things. Then another itch appeared at the side of my head and for a while  they competed with each other bit then the side itch became more dominant and the other one that was previously very intense faded but remained on radar. Another itch appeared and again the intensity became dominant but the other two remained present but no longer seemed to require attention. The three itches cycled in attention seeking...scratch me, no scratch me! Each time I just observed the sensation the urge faded. As this was going on something touched my hand, I opened my eyes it was someone's bag, I took note that I had passed the SNAT test. There was a child being obstreperous and arguing with mother I presume  but only he was heard. As I got off two women had huge rucksacks on the floor one moved her bag the other didn't resulting in me treading on her supposed toe  and she shouted something non English at me..I turned round but it was too late I was already bodily on the way out of the train, next time move yer bag lady...I've only got little legs!

Father now has pacemaker and is now eating strawberries...so,must be getting better.