Week 39 Day 2

Medi object choiceless awareness

Intention to remain alert

Afternoon all! A quick note. Today I attempted to practise but was all over the shop. Full of dreaded work thoughts. I attempted metta but to no avail. In the end I went backwards and forwards in my mind to work thoughts/tube noises/work thoughts/tense feelings etc etc. Got any tips on how to practise if one is totally distracted? As it turned out, work turned out to be bliss as a certain person was on leave. It was almost as though, my mindful fretful efforts had worked some magic to sort things out. Just goes to show that it’s always worse in your head than anywhere else. That’s the second time in as many weeks that that has happened.

Anyhoo, can you believe it’s almost September! Amazing. Only two more months to 30 days of insight and one more month to another course of 30 Days of mindfulness! Where has the time gone?

Hopefully tomorrow I will be calmer and more able to be in the present. I guess if anything this has taught me how I react to stressful situations – I am a planner to the core and just spend all the time thinking about all the possible scenarios that might happen (from the best to the worst!)

Have a great day!

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Week 39 Day 1

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to observe raw sensations and to be thankful for stuff

Afternoon all! Today 30 mins noting followed by short metta sesh. Today I would have played golf but the forecast was bad and none of my buddies were free. So I decided to stay in and later I will go to watch Ant Man!

As I sit I now hear the pitter patter of rain on the window so it was the right decision. I sat in my safe spot on the edge of the bed and observed. The radio was on in the bathroom but it was not too disruptive and every now and then I identified the songs and they stayed in the background of my meditation. The air temperature is just right and the time is just right for contemplation. As the thoughts came in and out of focus I turned to how I was feeling. A sense of calmness and well being pervades despite the difficulties I've had at work this week.  They are impermanent and I am thankful that my life is full of options. I am not tied to anything or anyone that I choose not to be with. As I ponder my work destiny I am thankful that I have skills that the market currently needs. They may not be the most titillating of jobs but you make your own interest and motivation.

Since I have been practising mindfulness my life outlook is more positive. In turn I find I am less bothered by frippery of office life and golf club politics. I have been able to focus on being healthy and happy. And to focus on good friends and my family. And also I am thankful that I have finally found a form of meditation that does not judge me if I can't  sit cross legged on the floor!

Ok so before I get to sit in the cinema my final task for the day is to continue to make progress on decluttering the living room...best get onto it.

Wishing all of you a lovely day and practice.  Thanks for being here.

🐽💜🐽

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Week 38 Day 7

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to remain alert

Evening all! late today and only a short practice, tomorrow foul weather forecast so no golf. Lie in and long practice maybe?

Nice to sit in quietness after busy day. Plenty of thoughts came through. Fan is whirring as it's hot here. The weather was scorching today what a surprise.

Just seen ginormous spider. Definitely not sharing my bed room. Tomorrow he's out!

Have a great weekend!  🐽 💜 🐽

Week 38 Day 6

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to remain alert and receptive to all sensations

Afternoon all! In the lovely sunshine. Sat in the car for a short while to practise. The main sensation was the sun on my face tingling and warm. So warm that half way through I had to switch the air con on! 😅

It's the weekend and after an eventful week so glad it's here. Metta at the end for family and forgiveness.

Have a great weekend! 🐽 💜 🐽

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Ps interview on Wednesday now  

Week 38 Day 5

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to practise metta and some noting

Morning all! Today I focused on metta to try and prepare me for a difficult meeting today. I hope that I can be gracious in the meeting even if it is to tell her I resign! No need to worry it is a contractor's prerogative to leave if things do not develop in the way as hoped. ..a positive - as I will not have to stew in negativity. It was pretty much an experiment anyway since the last project ended.

Metta was warm but difficult when I reflected on people that were not close to me.

Noting was short with thoughts of the day pervading! Arrrgh.

Will update later after meeting! 🐽💜🐽

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Week 38 Day 4

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to remain alert and receptive to all sensations

Morning all! Today back to tube practice. It is a fair day and the trains travel with no issues. As I sit in the carriage I hear phone conversations to my right, the public address system is faulty so the woman only says half a sentence after she announces the station. Then the announcements stop altogether and at one stop I have an eerie feeling that it's my stop and lo and behold it's Hammersmith! The train was gently rolling from side to side in a soporific manner. Thoughts of weight loss, family and holiday came to mind, work only came later.  This was accompanied by purple blocks in front of my eyes.

Metta was sweet and continuous as I reflected on needs and forgiveness.

It's officially hump day and I'm in the office only today and tomorrow yeeehaaa!  Have a lovely day! 🐽 💜 🐽

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Week 38 Day 3

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to observe raw sensations

Morning all! Today I am in a cool hotel room pre golf. Short noting practice followed by metta.

Thoughts of golf politics pervaded the first half of the practice but these faded after a few mins. The air was cool and the room enormous as you can see! Weather good and hoping that golf will be good.

I watched patterns dance on my eyelids for a few moments and then listened to the air con for a while. Sitting is a very calming activity allowing me to fritter away the angst of socialising.

Have to dash,  have a great day! 🐽 💜 🌞 🐽

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Week 38 Day 2

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to remain alert

Morning all! A short practice before a busy socialising day. After packing I sat in my usual spot to practise. I allowed my mind to focus on whatever it wished. I observed swirls in front of my eyes, some planning thoughts and the physical sensation of my cooling skin having rushed around first thing.

A very serene yet vibrant session - always feels good about an hour or so after getting up.

Metta to myself then opening out to individuals, families, islands, continents and the whole world. Everyone wants love and kindness, we should send it to them!

Have a great Monday! 🐽💜🎈💜🐽

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Week 38 Day 1

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to remain alert

Evening all! Short meditation on returning home from a busy day and evening.

Golf fab, evening meal and film with friend. Delightful.

I sat to practise cycling through the senses and resting on some key thoughts. All is calm and peaceful here. Eyes very itchy had to apply eye drops.

Tomorrow another busy day. Need to plan carefully! Hope you all had a nice weekend! 🐽 💜 🌞 🐽

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Week 37 Day 7

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to remain alert

Almost forgot to post! I practised this morning for around 40 mins.

The fan was whirring and noisy, and I eventually had to switch it off halfway.  I've also had some trouble with itchy eyed so had to apply eye drops half way through. The room was quiet, the light and patterns danced on my eyelids as I entertained thoughts of holiday, garden and work. Nothing too in depth but some good ideas! 😅

After the final bell went I added some metta practice.

Tomorrow early rise, already late to sleep must get head down!

Have a good day! 🐽 💜 🐽

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Week 37 Day 6

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to remain alert

Very short practice today due to serious nodding tomorrow's should be better.

The sounds of the quiet house wafted into mind. As did the unusual noises outside what we're they?

Metta at the end.

Today the rain do not drench us so we had a great time. A charity day I think we raised £3500 thereabouts for the British Heart Foundation.

More golf tomorrow but just a social game!

Have a great weekend!🐽💜🐽

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Week 37 Day 5

Medi object choiceless awareness

Intention to remain alert

Evening all! Shorter practice today but remained alert throughout even though it's late. One can never anticipate how one will feel! Very quiet, neighbour has gone abroad. Calm and peaceful but some thoughts of the day. Today not so productive golf wise, had to come off after 5th hole because of thunder and lightning. Matches abandoned. But still ,a aged to run some errands which was a bonus, 

Hoping for better weather tomorrow....

Have a great Friday! 🐽💜🐽

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Week 37 Day 4

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to remain alert

Morning all! Today a toob meditation. My eyes have been itching like crazy so I will need to head to the pharmacy for meds.

However the itching was an exercise in impermanence as the discomfort has now stopped. However a new session may flare up this evening!

Metta at the end for my niece and me.

I struggled with planning thoughts for work but had a great idea for going to interviews! 😅

Bad weather is on the horizon but golf in the rain is better than work any day! 🐽 💜 🐽

Have a great day!

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Week 37 Day 3

Medi object choiceless awareness 
Intention to observe raw sensations

Evening all! Meditated on the tube this morning. Busy at work so posting now.

Felt calm and neutral. And tried to focus on what was around me. A fidgeting man next to me! But it seemed very quiet and subdued on the train. Maybe the weather?

Tried to be positive and productive at work and seemed to be ok. Tried to be aware of whole picture rather than telescopic niggle bits.

Count down to golf. Just need the weather to behave!

Have a good evening! 🐽💜🐽

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