Week 37 Day 2

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert and observe raw sensations

Morning all! back on the tube again. Today I attempted to be in the carriage rather than plan my day at work. It lasted about 10 minutes so I spent the rest of the time batting off thought trains. Amazing what one can sense with eyes shut and then momentarily opening them. Just shows how little I notice with my eyes open all the time!

Metta to myself, Dean and my family at the end.

Well gotta hang on for 3 days then it will be a golf fest. Woohoo!  Anyhoo today I will see if I can make a few mindful notes about my reactions to situations. Let's see! Might all go out the window as I step into the office! 😀

Have a great day! 🐽 💜 🐽

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Week 37 Day 1

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert

Evening all!  Today 30 mins at the end of a lovely sunny day golfing.

Today the room was warm and half way through I had to turn the fan on. I felt a little noddy towards the end.  Practice is definitely not good after a long day...how do people do it after putting children to bed? Do they drink coffee to keep them alert?

I cycled through the senses hearing seeing taste smell feeling and thought. Thoughts were random, no real planning or story thoughts.

Anyhoo work for 3 days then offskis again for 6 days of golf! 😅  phew hope I hold out! More importantly hope the weather holds out!

Hope you all had a nice weekend and that it is ending nice and chillingly! 🐽💜🐽

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Week 36 Day 7

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert

Evening all! Short practice this morning pre golf. I felt alert but still - like a statue but soft. I listened to small noises from upstairs and ignored an itch and it passed! Remember those?m I had some random thought but on the whole just happy to be there.

After the bell I did some metta.

Today I came fourth (same score as third place but lost on countback) most importantly the handicap stayed the same. More of the same tomorrow I hope! 😜

Have a great weekend! 🐽💜🐽

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Week 36 Day 6

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert

Evening all! Today another short practice as a bit out of routine and crazy busy at work at a local commuter hub office.

It's deathly quiet for some reason even the ringing in my ears is quiet. Glad it's the weekend 😅.

A few mins metta at the end to close off a very hectic but productive day.

Tomorrow. .? Golf. What else.

Have a great weekend! 🐽 💜 🐽

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Week 36 Day 5

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert

Evening all!  Short and sweet and now time for bed. 10 mins noting 10 mins metta. Today a busy day, thanks for your well wishes, think I'm ok now!?

It's Friday tomorrow hooray! Can't wait...or is that attachment 😅

See you tomorrow!  🐽 💜 🐽

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Week 36 Day 4

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert and receptive

Evening all! Practised this morning but have been busy till now. Also have appeared to have eaten something dodgy so sewers are working overtime in Ashford 😅.

Today it was a strange day, a tube strike looming so it wasn't the usual work journey. As I sat and observed what was around me, I briefly opened my eyes at a station and my eyes were drawn to a pair of enormous tan platforms attached to a woman's legs. Wow how she walked in them I will never know.

Today was a difficult day that got better and except for this minor bug where I must not be far from the loo, life is good.

Stay well! 🐽💜🐽

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Week 36 Day 3

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to observe raw sensations

Evening all! Another late one as have been out most of the day. In today's practice there was busyness in quietness. My ears rang loudly as the world around seems asleep . No aches and pains only a sense of girding up the loins for 3 days work.

Metta at the beginning was focused for 10 mins or so. Continued to include forgiveness metta in there.

Now to bed at a sensible hour so that I can get up for the one day I need to be in the office (tube strike prevents me from travelling into town).

Have a good one! 🐽 💜 🐽

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Week 36 Day 2

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to observe raw sensations

A late one today for 30 mins. But very alert. I decided to let all sensations into the field without categorising. Feelings sounds breathing lights in front of eyes and thoughts - all a jumble. Except not quite a mess as a few sensations came to the fore. Some minor transient pain above the head and then an ache in the legs. Thoughts of all sorts with background music. I have been watching the Voice kids on YouTube wow those children are amazing. It's early hours I suspect that my neighbour is asleep as he gets up at 4am to start work.

Metta for 5 mins at the end.

Okydoky have to hit the sack early rose tomorrow!

Hope you all had a great day! 🐽 💜 🐽

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Week 36 Day 1

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to observe raw sensations

Morning all! Today a shorter practice due to time constraints. Metta first - towards myself and my family. Noting was full of thoughts, some I got lost in and others passed through.  My latest aversion is to my neighbour who is a peeping tom and I'm trying to work out how to block the gap in the fence!

Oh yes as promised pic of what's painted so far, more tomorrow.

Have a great Sunday! 🐽💜🐽

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Week 35 Day 7

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert

Evening all! Today a shorter practice again. I seemed to be tired today and struggled with nodding. Sometimes I am alert at this time but not today.

Metta was of mixed success...but feeling weary didn't help.

Anyhoo..today a productive day, did some mindful painting of shed. More on Monday!

Hope you're having a good day! 🐽 💜 🐽

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Week 35 Day 6

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert and receptive to all sensations

Evening all! Thought I would have some time for more practice in the evening but turned out not to be. Short practice this morning on the patio! Lovely quiet and warm day, heard some speeding mopeds and chirping birds and felt the cool air on the skin. Planning thoughts abounded, I had left myself insufficient time not to worry. Note to self...allow more time. Metta was good at the end with forgiveness reflections too.

Have a great weekend all! 🐽💜🐽

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Week 35 Day 5

Medi object choiceless awareness
Intention to remain alert and receptive to all sensations

Afternoon all! today 45 mins with metta at the start.

Today is a non working day for me and has been productive so far! Soon after getting up I steeled myself to attack the overgrown weeds over the decking. Got most of it out.

Then cleared out the shed including birds nest although I saw a little robin on the fence so I'm wondering if he gave me the dagger eyes as I got rid of his hard work!

Today's meditation was calm and yet vibrant. Lots of energy today. I found myself observing thoughts about  beautifying my little ugly patch. Some good ideas! I also was very sensitive to the cold. It's not cold but it's not hot here either..curious British summer!

Metta was fairly stable, may read more of Salzberg's book toda.

My neighbour us back from work so there is noise from upstairs. Thoughts about my storage living room came to mind so I'm going to attempt to clear the sofa...more tomorrow!

I am very content that I am not at work for another few days and I am determined to make good use of it...tomorrow I will attempt to paint the garden woodwork! 😀

Hope you are having a good day! 🐽 💜 🌞 🐽

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